New Beginnings

About 2 years ago I moved to Connecticut. This move was hard on me in many ways. I was coming out of a place that may should never have to venture. I never left my house, agoraphobia had basically taken me over and most of my interactions and relationships were online. I met some wonderful people in that little place call the "intrawebz" and spent a lot of time with a select few, who knew of my plight and that I also had a deep seeded desire to get out of my current condition but no means financially to do so. Unexpectedly they introduced me to someone who facilitated that move.

The move itself was hard. I spent months going through things and tossing out what wasn't necessity, including some of my spiritual items that had been tainted with crud from people who didn't have my best interest or my children's best interest at heart. What I could burn, I burned. What I couldn't, I buried. Some I shredded, if the words were written. Others I archived or sent back to the original owners. I kept NO gifts from a select group of people who had indeed been cause of great grief to my family. After a HUGE purge, I loaded what was left in a small moving truck and moved 1400 miles away from home. Now, I'm back in college, working on my degree in Psychology with goals of ultimately a Ph.D. I have an EXCELLENT job that just gets better everyday I'm working it, my youngest daughter is excelling in school in a way she never did at our old home. The list goes on forever. I have in truth but ONE Being to be thankful for. Mother....

I have at this point decided it is time to mark myself properly for Mother, The Dark one who encompasses my being. Lilith has been with my whole life and Hermes has strangely accompanied her recently and in the not so distant past. I have courted several other patrons but none have stayed for long but Hermes has made his bed within my soul alongside Lilith. However you wish to view them, this is my path.

On 4/10/2010 I will have a very large tattoo on my back done in honor of both Lilith and Hermes. Lilith as Caduceus. I think this is my only way of marking myself properly. No symbol is good enough, no cross, no star, no bird, no staff, nothing seems to fit. But this....this marking I'm excited for, I long to have it marked on my body so that I can show the World where I am today and Who I belong to. If you notice the avatar that is on this page, that is the base for the artwork. I will post pictures of the process as we go. The first visit is just the outline and I will have several more for coloring them in.

I can't wait!!!